(Blimey!-Mireille D'Allanche. Bellissimo register shows that expresses my mood today)
sometimes I wish I could write something exciting about me, about my family .. I know, cute anecdotes, tales of beautiful days we spent together .. something .. how many of you do. But
In my family there is obviously something wrong.
Communication is very poor and when you end up there often to discuss or to reach high tones .. we closed three people each in their own world and it seems that no one likes it or not be able to interact openly, peacefully and with love . it is difficult to tell the whole story in a post of my family but I can try to describe components.
My dad is not a component: no. Or rather, there has not been able to since I was about 3 anni.Ne emoitivamente, neither physically nor economically.
My mom was always there. Alone with his strength a little more than 20 years has raised two children, worked with his own strength. He always loved me and my brother. He did and does. Of this I am sure .. but he does say that a bit 'in its own way, without showing it openly. It is not a mother who hugs you, kisses you, you jump on him. a mother is not asking you to make her a ring when you arrived at your destination. is not a mom when you are gone a week I called 3 times a day. Do not send her love to gestures, words. Maybe it simply shows going to work every day and worrying about eating. Perhaps this is the only way in which he can prove his love.
not blame her at all. I know that is not to blame. Simply did not and does not have the right tools. I think a lot about his personality is due ai suoi genitori.
i miei nonni: li chiamo così ma, con rammarico, non li sento tali. Probabilmente anche loro,sì, ci vogliono bene. Ma anche loro non lo dimostrano ne a gesti ne a parole. Però sì, c'hanno aiutati economicamente quando dopo i casini fatti da mio babbo siamo rimasti praticamente in mezzo alla strada. Quindi certo c'hanno aiutato. La cosa che non mi piace però è il fatto che lo facciano notare. A mio parere se uno vuole aiutare e se lo fa dal profondo, per amore...NON lo rinfaccerebbe MAI.
oltre a questo non ricordo mai neanche da parte loro carezze, baci, frasi, racconti...non riesco purtroppo ad associarli alla figura tipica dei nonni..pronta a coccolarti e a farti sentire speciale. La delusione maggiore by my grandfather when I heard it, finish high school, I thought about my future. His counsel, in front of my desire to make the university and pursue my dream was to go to work. Reason? because "the situation in which you find you have to work."
What can I say ... I do not .. I would have expected from him since oltrettutto is highly educated and graduated! many would say "a cool grandfather graduated ... .. young spin doctors." Well at that time I would have preferred a grandparent contadino.Più elderly. More genuine. More loving. My grandmother
I think is good, but too much influenced by the subject mentioned above.
My brother. Well let him be too difficult. it is impossible to describe it. When I think of him I see a boy of 24 years imprisoned inside his own world, inside a cage from which it knows will not quit. He has not finished his studies, not work, he spends most time at home to the PC. Although this is smart. yes it is. but fails to exploit that intelligence deep. Does not consider important the material. But unfortunately that still did not understand money are necessary to live. My brother loves to talk about life, his way or no way. He likes to talk of ideals, of sensitivity. But many times does not show much sensitivity. Or maybe even in this case can not. is a lunatic. After a morning of silence is capable of telling you yell ugly things in the world just for a word from me che lo ha fatto innervosire. Mio fratello non è cattivo ma spesso fa il cattivo. è pieno di rabbia. Non sa tirarla fuori e l'unico modo per sfogarsi è trovare un pretesto per urlare di fronte a me. L'unico modo che ha per sentirsi forte è colpirmi nel profondo con temi che sa che posson ferirmi. Pensa di non esser mai nel torto, di non sbagliare mai e dice di esser in pace con stesso. Dice che è felice. Ma io credo che sia solo un modo per auotoconvincersi e un'arma per non sprofondare.
Ultimo ma non meno importante componente della famiglia è Ragù: il gatto. Forse l'unico che è riuscito a creare un po' di unione fra di noi in questo mare di confusione. In questo mescolone di cose che non vengono mai elaborate.
Lui col suo simple swipe and you will always, he rose with his Musino is capable of giving us so much. At all. And I
? I try to face all this chaos without losing heart even in times of crisis will inevitably come. I WANTED TO GET TO MY DREAMS despite everything. I try to fight for something precious. I try to commit x what I believe even if few believe in me. or at least I try. I have to prvarci only for myself .. because the family that I want in the future is not like I have now.
Tears.
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